Statement of Faith

That sounds so… So professional to put it like that….

- Statement of Faith - 

Upon re-discovering this blog, I was honestly a little surprised to see I had an entire statement of faith tab. Statement of faith? Who the hell did I think I was? 

Then again, remembering who I was in (checks date of first post) uhhh, 2009? Christ I was... Hold on I need to do some math here... 15? 16? I probably shouldn't be surprised. 

This is the only post I am altering. At the time I had held some pretty strong religious convictions which I find I no longer still hold. I was a teenager, raised in a very religious family, who thought traveling the world meant I had seen it. 

As an adult, there is such a huge gap between seeing something and understanding it: I do not blame my younger self for this, and I hope none of you blame your younger selves for similar things. I do, however, want to acknowledge that I have changed. I understand more now, and I have still more yet to learn. 

I digress. 

Since I am leaving a "Statement of Faith" tab up, perhaps as some memorial of sorts, or as a testament of my departure from a child's belief system, I suppose some form of "statement" may be warranted. 

If there is a god, which I believe there is, though it's not my business what you believe - I believe that that god created us in their image. Not to be vain, but because they, perhaps, were lonely. 

And if you have ever been in love, you may recognize the yearning to share every beautiful thing with your partner. The burning wish to have them at your side for every experience, no matter how small. Maybe you text them throughout the day, "I saw a puppy at work! I wish you were at lunch with me right now. How are you? I miss you." 

And if you or I were a god, alone in a universe but with the power to create, would you or I not take it upon ourself to call a world to share into being? To create others who will share in the full experience of living with us, the from the depths of grief to the heights of passion and joy?

That's about the whole of it, of my belief. We exist for the experience of existing itself, and to share our own experiences, to share in the experiences of others. Is there nothing more beautiful than to love and to share and to not be wholly alone? 

In the case that you are a religiously minded friend and find this to be too "new agey" or have some other issue with it like that, I did go to a whole entire bible college and I can discuss this in detailed biblical terms for you. It'll be a boring discussion though and you do really have your own bible. The nuances of one's belief are sometimes best left to a prayer closet, to be discussed with God in private, no? 

If you don't want to argue with me and instead are just curious you can also reach out. I'm not against it. Just note I am really bad at responding to messages and I uninstalled both Insta and Facebook Messenger from my phone a long while ago. 

This blog will not primarily be a religious one (I don't think, anyways). Just a place I come to write, and a place I come to share my human experience with you.  

Thank you for taking the time to read this. It really does mean a lot to me. Time is of such great value. 

Thank you for using yours to listen to me.